Sunday, May 27, 2012

isn't ~may~ over yet?

"The journey is the reward."
~Tao proverb

i think it's been a week since i've been out here...
floating through cyberspace.
maybe it's been a couple of weeks.
maybe a sure feels like it!

my sciatica problem was about 99% gone...(totally healed now as i write this),
when my lower, right side jaw began to ache.  throb.
i woke up one morning looking like a chipmunk
and in way too much pain.
i drove to the nearest emergency walk-in clinic and left with a prescription
for antibiotics and another for an anti-inflammatory...
and a diagnosis of an abscessed tooth.
but until the medication coursed through my body...
the swelling & pain kept getting worse.
i thought my jaw would burst.

i cancelled all my appointments.
i did nothing.   nada.   zilch.

i'm ok now.  well, sort of.
i have an app't (fear!) with a dentist (fear!) tuesday afternoon (fear!) for them to take a look.

while my jaw swelling was subsiding
and the throbbing became bearable...

i got a call from the mother of one of my clients.
i figured she was calling to set up a massage for her she does each month.
she called to tell me that ginny had died that morning.
i thought i misunderstood her.

i've been seeing ginny for about eight years. 
in the beginning, she was getting massage therapy once a week.
then we went to twice a month.
and for the past few years i've seen her once a month.

ginny was 29. she lived in a Group Home. she had Cerebral Palsy.

that morning, the staff got her out of bed and into her wheel-chair.
she complained of back pain.
she complained of not being able to breathe. 
the staff called 911 and ginny's mother.

ginny had a seizure. then a heart attack.
she passed away shortly after arriving at the hospital...of yet, a second heart attack.

ginny was such a happy-go-lucky person.
always wanting to please.
always wanting to help.
and always wanting to talk about her boyfriend problems...and eager for advice.

she loved anything Sponge-Bob...and could recite line by line...all the Harry Potter movies.
she had a contagious smile.
although she needed assistance with some of her daily activities...
she was always bubbly & wanting to do whatever she could...for herself...and others.

once ginny crossed your path...she had claim to a piece of your heart.

it was a shock.
but i know that wherever her spirit is...she runs free...
on legs that were never able to hold her upright independently.
she's probably rolling around in a field of wildflowers...laughing...
and playing with her dog who recently passed away.
ginny was her mother's joy & light.
i feel for her.
she is all those who had the pleasure of being touched by her.

this candle is in remembrance of ginny's life.

To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die.    
~Thomas Campbell, "Hallowed Ground"

it's still the month of May.

saturday morning, sam & i were going to pick wild blackberries 
from the field across the road.
but there were a couple of wild fires not too far away...
and the air was thick with smoke and un-breathable.

so, i decided to head into town and do some grocery shopping.
when i pulled into the parking lot...and parked...
my car wouldn't shut off.
the key wouldn't turn.
so i drove back home...
but even sam, who is a mechanical genius, couldn't get the key to turn in the ignition.

back to town.
hoping the chevy place was open...being a holiday weekend.
whew.  they were open.  and i found out there was a recall for the faulty ignition.
so after a two hour wait, i was good to go. my car was good to go...
and my wallet wasn't any lighter!

i've decided i can't keep up with my newly developed plans for both a 
Friday Fringe and Morphing Monday posts.

...eenie meanie miny mo...

friday fringe it is...with a morph tossed in now and then.

(oops. power outage. thunder rolling in.
 tropical storm, winds & rain heading in our direction.)

SO, i ask again...isn't May over yet?
i'm looking forward to june...and a full moon.

remember...reflect...and honor...
all the soldiers that have died while serving our nation.

a happy memorial day to those in the usa.

be cool. stay safe.

Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul, 
and sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all.  
~Emily Dickenson


  1. Yes...a new month and a fresh start. I am so sorry you lost your young friend.

  2. Hi Laura, I am sorry for your loss. Lovely tribute to your Ginny. June will be here in a blink of an eye. Amazing how fast time goes here, especially the weekends. I loved this post and your beautiful flowers. Hope you are having a great holiday weekend.

  3. oh, sweetie. you've had quite a month. i am sorry for the heartache of ginny's loss. how terrible for all who knew and loved her. what a spirit she sounds like.

    good luck w/ the tooth. be brave!

  4. Yikes . . . an abcessed tooth isn't fun . . . , sad for the loss of Ginny . . . Wonderful you shared your heart with her . . . May is winding down and hot, steamy, awful weather is in full swing. Be well . . . and no more "foo foo" bird flying over bringing you challenges . . . All the best!

  5. Give sorrow words;
    the grief that does not speak
    Whispers the o’er-fraught heart
    and bids it break. ~ William Shakespeare

    We must be on the same wavelength, as my recent post deals with remembering those we've lost - anyone, really, who has touched our heart. I used the above quote and felt it appropriate to leave here, also. You are so good at expressing your feelings here, accompanied with lovely photos that also speak volumes. You've had a rough time, lately, so find some R & R wherever you can & know that those of us who follow you understand - take care, sweet lady.

  6. No wonder you're waiting for May to pass. What a month! I hate going to the dentist, too, as you know. I'll be thinking of you on tuesday and hoping it all goes well and gets done with one appointment, too.

    What a beautiful tribute to Ginny! It's so true that there are people who just quietly carve out a place to rest in your heart and will never leave. I'm glad that, if it was time for her to go, she went fast. Easier on them. Harder on us.

    Crazy car troubles! Glad that got fixed and they were still open--that's amazing in itself. Love all your pictures. June will be here soon. Bless you, sweetie!! :):)

  7. Holy moose-poops,'ve had a rough time of recovering and now to have someone so dear to you pass. I am truly sorry for your loss but remember, she will be with you she had a piece of your heart!...:)JP

  8. what a month you've had Laura
    i empathise with the dental dramas, my two 'must have dental helpers' are rescue remedy (before) and arnica drops (after) may you recover soon
    sorry to hear of the loss of Ginny, you have written a lovely memorial tribute
    may June bring better things

  9. oh so sad about Ginny, hope your dentist is as lovely as mine and sorts out your toothache. Seems to have been a challenging year so far for many of us, take time out for yourselves, be in nature! Love and your dreams X

  10. Laura!! May is just about over and we will be welcoming June with open arms. My condolences I offer to you for you friend Ginny. And I also hope you have a successful visit with the dentist Tuesday. God Bless You and Happy Memorial Day!

  11. Sorry to hear things haven't been going so well and also condolences regarding your friend Ginny. I hope things go well at the dentist. I've had to have three root canals over a period of about 20 years. One was due to an abscess and another because I cracked my tooth. Don't know exactly what was going on with the one I just had. Three different dentists did them. One was great and I had no problems. The other one was a pain and took forever to heal properly. This last one has gone well.

    Lovely photos. Only four days left in May. Maybe June will be better.

  12. It sounds as if you have had a really rough month and I am so sorry about the loss of Ginny.
    I'm hoping June will be much kinder to you.
    Take care!!!

  13. Oh I am sorry it sounds like Ginny touched a lot of hearts. Take care of yourself. I do not like dentists either. Love your pics. Not to much of May left hold on. HUGS B

  14. As always, your photos are lovely, and include a sweet tribute to Ginny.

  15. Thanks for the mushrooms and the dragonfly... so sorry about Ginny, but I am sure her new found freedom is a blessing to her soul.
    Feel better soon!

  16. I pray Ginny felt no pain and that she is in a place where her happy go lucky ways are celebrated and enjoyed. I hope she gets to see Nature the way you show it to us; perfect.

  17. thanks everyone for all your kind & understanding words...
    just wanted to leave an update on my tooth...uh, teeth...for anyone who might read this.

    yesterday afternoon i had a Root Canal AND an extraction. and amazingly, i don't have any PAIN today...just a dull ache. plan to get back in the swing of things now...

    thanks for hanging in there with me...through crazy May. now it's june and started off with a magical full moon! :) >>laura

  18. Lovely photos, lovely blog.

  19. So sorry about ginny--what a shock for you and her mom. She sounds like she was a lovely person--and I am sure you are right-she is now running on legs that are strong and free.

    And glad the root canal and extraction seems to have taken care of your teeth pain (though that doesn't sound like a fun solution at all!!)


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